elilla, trans woman travesti @elilla@transmom.love

and with this 👆 I believe we make good on the promise of explaining the wrist tattoo which we made like 2 months ago ahahah

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some of my Instagram material re: been a mood for a week. wrote these after 2 conflict-y plenums back-to-back.

Why we fight? Utena says she wants to care for Anthy better than Tōga ever would. She came for her "friendship", for Anthy, maybe. But Tōga replies, oh, so you want to regain your own self. Utena doesn't deny that, and in fact claims later that she wants to recover, literally, "what had been for me the normal"(rendered on the subs as "to take back my life"),

Tōga orders Anthy to "throw away her body", and extends the Sword of the Patriarch-God. Anthy kneels before the elegant longsword and brings her mouth to it; Utena can't bear to watch. But her body seems unharmed, maybe. Tōga holds upright the Sword, both sparkling gleefully.

Even in her private thoughts, Anthy refers to whoever is the current Owner of the Bride with the honorific of submission, as Master or Mistress. She won't drop the sarcastic "sempai" she has weaponised before, though; she uses the family name with polite distancing.

Duels are a game, ended when you slash a duelist's rose; but Nanami wanted to straight out murder Utena (or at least Nanami thought she did). Anthy can't understand why Utena is risking herself like this. But for all the talk of danger, Tōga seems content to show his prowess by slashing Utena's clothes, exposing her further with each stroke. She seems unharmed, maybe.

Anthy recognises the image of the Prince incarnate in Utena again. In a close repeat of the 1st Duel, again Utena's sword is broken and nearly useless, again she's almost defeated, again all seems hopeless, again she's facing the Sword of Dios Itself, this time engorged full bloom in the hands of a master. And again Utena somehow wins, without understanding herself what she's doing. What is this princely strenght that Utena draws upon? Anthy and Tōga are both exceedingly knowledgeable about this whole system, but both of them are shocked into silence by this.

There's one difference this time: Rather than directly defeating the enemy, what the princely power does is to release the Rose Bride coating from the Sword of Dios. When that happens, Anthy sheds tears.

Anthy repeats the exact same contract of submission as when Utena first won her, as if they hadn't been living together for so long. Utena narrows her eyes and cuts her off, addressing her Bride with pointed familiarity. Then she smiles. Anthy takes this in for a second, then returns the same smile. Utena has saved the damsel from the bad man. Utena has taken back her normalcy. Now she can have all those intimate moments again, just like before. Everything is healed. Everything is fine.

#utena

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- in train stuck
- 4am
- after personal group setting gone bad
- after pol thing gone bad
- didn't bring my notebook
- cellphone broke
- way too much stuff to for work tomorrow
- and on the train playing whack-a-mole with fash harassment campaign to protect me + my users from who know what

what a Saturday huh captain

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